If everything is deterministic, i.e. determined, there's no free will, so you/I are just a NPC. I prefer to live in a universe where my conscious decisions matter, or at least can't be predicted beforehand.
Randomness doesn't imply free will. What if you/I are NPCs that just roll the dice before doing something? It's not you that chose the outcome, it's the dice, i.e. the laws of physics.
I don't know how free will could actually work with any kind of universe governed by a set of laws, whether they include randomness or not. So I don't believe in it, but of course in my day to day life I act as if it exists.
Yet I don't know how qualia or subjective experiences could actually work with any kind of universe governed by a set of laws, whether they include randomness or not. But I believe I have this subjective view of the world that doesn't seem to be explainable with a set of equations.
So it's weird. At least philosophy and science agree that.
