I never thought I’d be the victim of this pandemic but consider myself a victim now.
My mental health has deteriorated to a point where it’s difficult to juggle work and family responsibilities. I put family first and work second. But the people I work with don’t know or care that I can’t work on something because I’m home stuck taking care of family trapped in quarantine hell. When I do tell them some change their tone.
I’m suffering from the fact that when I work, I give it 100%. Any less and I feel like a failure. I’ve had blips at work where I’ve threatened to my boss that I can’t work there anymore because I can’t give it 100%. I don’t want to put myself in a situation where I get fired. I’d rather leave on my own terms and let someone who can do my job at their 100% in.
It’s not my job’s fault for my home arrangement. They’ve gone above and beyond to give me support and work with me. At the same time there’s no support from our government to help me with assistance should I decide I can’t work anymore.
Our government has failed on a lot and it doesn’t matter if it’s Trump or Biden. There’s too much red tape and too much looking out for big businesses and not enough to help people.
You need to start seeing yourself as a survivor of all this even if you're not over it yet. I was bummed the fuck out when I got covid but the truth is made it out ok and circa 50 million people didn't, that's a memento mori if there is one.
Taking pride in your work is a good thing. However, consider that it's all relative... your 50% effort is probably another person's 100% effort. You are totally allowed to dial it back and focus more on yourself and your family. In fact most people probably would not even notice if you did so.
The first few years of my career, I worked as hard as possible and started feeling deeply ill. I realized the need to put forth my maximum effort was all self-imposed, totally in my head. Now I personally try to do as little work as possible, and I am still highly regarded at my job.
My mental health has deteriorated to a point where it’s difficult to juggle work and family responsibilities. I put family first and work second. But the people I work with don’t know or care that I can’t work on something because I’m home stuck taking care of family trapped in quarantine hell. When I do tell them some change their tone.
I’m suffering from the fact that when I work, I give it 100%. Any less and I feel like a failure. I’ve had blips at work where I’ve threatened to my boss that I can’t work there anymore because I can’t give it 100%. I don’t want to put myself in a situation where I get fired. I’d rather leave on my own terms and let someone who can do my job at their 100% in.
It’s not my job’s fault for my home arrangement. They’ve gone above and beyond to give me support and work with me. At the same time there’s no support from our government to help me with assistance should I decide I can’t work anymore.
Our government has failed on a lot and it doesn’t matter if it’s Trump or Biden. There’s too much red tape and too much looking out for big businesses and not enough to help people.